My attention is different

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I’m interested in sensitive, artistic, creative humans.

Not so much “normal” people who are easily impressed and use the same look or the same words their whole lives.

I was one of those, I tried to imitate normal… And I just got bored, depressed, or stressed until I collapsed and changed completely.

I left everything in my life, without hesitation.

And on the first day of the year, I discovered I have ADHD, which is something like “Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder.”

Then I read that it’s no longer a disorder but a deficit.

Whatever.

The truth is, by recognizing it, I understood why I got so bored with everything…

And why children get bored with what almost all adults do (it’s absurd, what’s it about?) :grin:

The A-side I learned to enjoy

It’s quite simple to imagine: I can read, meditate, cook, savor, have sex, trade, or do anything that interests me, with my full attention, and it’s great! :fire:

Because not all cases of ADHD mean we get distracted and struggle to “focus”; there are also those of us who “over-focus.”

The B-side I learned to limit

If I’m hyper-focused, everything else disappears. Without intending to, everything else “goes away.”

I’m late (fuck clock) for thinking or meditating all the time and naturally :smiling_face_with_tear:

Because if I “plugged in” to something, it’s very likely that I’ll accumulate dishes in the kitchen for a couple of days…

Whereas when I fall in love, I make an effort to maintain my daily life, because I tend to go in a flash to whatever captures my attention (without thinking).

This video very cleverly summarizes what people with differential attention experience.

And it’s an approach that points to our real potential:

https://videos.criptonautas.co/w/7CL2YS4ZjYRrZcyW4LUP73

It illustrates my reality when I tried to follow “the model” of ideal son or boyfriend, lawyer, salesman, entrepreneur.

I lived “too” dependent even when founding this community.

I accepted my reality

I learned that what others say doesn’t matter. Because according to them, one should only dedicate oneself to one thing…

And I really like to change.

I can take photos professionally, mix electronic music, do trading AND ALSO manage servers plus this community.

I do many other things very well, because I accept myself and allow myself to change.

My life will ALWAYS change, being an eight-month baby and some other things, influenced my inability to just follow orders.

We are different (!)

Because you don’t need to be diagnosed with ADHD to recognize your interest in the alternative, mystical, or “beyond.”

If you’re in Criptonautas, you’re not very normal.

We are “different” for the programming that constantly analyzes what is right or wrong.

We allow ourselves to create when we are motivated, and to super-focus on what truly passions and interests us.

Learning in a self-taught way means recognizing that we are naturally multi-potential.

Children learn until they are forced into normalcy.

https://www.vice.com/en/article/gyjx3w/people-with-adhd-can-focus-really-hard

https://www.additudemag.com/understanding-adhd-hyperfocus/

https://www.additudemag.com/love-bombing-adhd-hyperfocus/

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Una crisis mental despertó mi Reseteo
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En palabras más cercanas, mi TDAH sería responsable de que use ~50 pestañas abiertas, pase 15 horas de corrido estudiando o haciendo algo…

Haya olvidado varias camperas (que ya no quería usar), y que me haya costado tanto entender lo poco que algunos valoran su realidad.

También es responsable de que me haya propuesto SI O SI cotidianamente meditar. Y que a mis 35 acepte -libremente- estimular mi creatividad y priorizar :slight_smile:

Mis conversaciones suelen tener varios “focos” porque para mí el verdadero foco al hablar es la experiencia de interactuar (y no tanto lo que diga, que luego se puede “buscar”).

Entiendo que 2 o 3 de cada 10 tienen TDAH. Si te identificas, puedes contarnos lo que quieras en comunidad!

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Excelente abrir este hilo.

A los 27 aprox leí un estudio que habían publicado de una universidad de USA (no se cual) que hablaba sobre una enfermedad llamada ADD.

Increíblemente llamo mi atención y me sentí identificado con casi todo lo que leía.

En ese momento me lo negué a mi mismo (porque era una enfermedad) en lugar de aceptar e investigar y usarlo a mi favor.

Actualmente trabajo en cultivar mi enfoque y constancia con la meditación y así evitar distracciones mundanas que no me interesan pero me obligaba a hacerlas porque los demás las hacían.

Con el tiempo fui aceptando que no necesito demostrar nada a nadie mas si aceptarme.

Que lo que realmente me gusta, puedo estar horas y horas dedicándole todo mi tiempo hasta que lo consigo

Pero son muy muy pocas las vainas con las que eso me pasa sin que me aburra en el camino.

Alguna vez uno de mis maestros me dijo que acepte también que habemos personas creadoras de ideas que se complementan otras que su misión es terminarlas.

En su momento mi interpretación fue muy lineal aunque siento que hoy voy abriendo el abanico.

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Que buen post @satonotdead !!!

Destaco enormemente el punto de que “todos somos diferentes”
La matrix (entre otras cosas no tan buenas) nos enseña a discriminar, diferenciar, competir y rotular. En lugar de ello podríamos aceptar, aprender, evolucionar, relacionarnos y vivir.

No solo me refiero a las personas sino a todo nuestro entorno.

Me siento identificado con algunas características de las que mencionas, si no me gusta adapto, si me gusta, me hace bien y no molesto a nadie es parte de mi !!!

Pura vida !!!

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Date that confirms what I choose for myself and on my own :slight_smile:

THC has very positive results when treating the “B side” of ADHD.

In my experience, it makes the pressure we feel regarding schedules that are “normal” more bearable.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8832253/

This case report describes 3 males (ages 18, 22, and 23) who have integrated cannabis into their treatment regimen with positive results.

Semistructured interviews conducted with the patients describe subjective improvements in symptoms and on quality of life. Improvements on validated rating scales conducted post-cannabis initiation, compared to pre-cannabis initiation obtained from the medical chart, corroborated their personal accounts.

It is a closed study, with little funding and no dissemination because it is about cannabis and perhaps someone prefers that what is different remains a stigma.

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Okay! I’m adding more info that came in (:

The evolutionary account of ADHD supports what many psychologists have long suspected:

Kids with ADHD tend to thrive when they’re given more opportunities for movement and exploration than when they’re compelled to sit still for several hours a day.

By being outside the pattern, if we migrate, we adapt much better (!)

It also seems that all attention deficits enable hyper-focus:

It’s just that it can’t - from my experience - be applied to anything other than what makes sense (purpose) for us.

You have this, then you choose what to do

My ADHD went from being a problem to becoming a blessing when I stopped pleasing everyone else.

When I stopped enduring being locked in classrooms, at tables with family, in churches. And I allow myself to move, all the time.

Then my impulsivity became spontaneity and my hyper-focus became meditation and constant contemplation.

Through art, which is what I do when no one tells me to, I managed to express my creativity like never before.

And that only came when I let myself be, free. Without anyone else wanting to fix me or wanting to fix others.

Because at first it seems cool to be the one who talks and adds something in all school and university classes…

But then that creates enemies, saturates, scares.

And one stops manifesting, transforming the blessing into a problem. Fuck authority.

This also applies to dyslexia, which is another way in which communities evolve through alternative lives :folded_hands:

Everything is fine and at the same time it’s wrong. The difference is what we do with it, that’s all.

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For those of us with differentiated attention, fulfilling executive functions can be terrible.

And I guess it’s something they noticed from my work, which turned into a crisis in the community :melting_face:

Only by accepting, can we improve.

Someone with executive dysfunction might be disorganized, may have difficulty making plans or sticking to them once made, and may not be able to complete tasks in the necessary amount of time.

Even when the person tries to focus and concentrate on one thing, they may end up doing something entirely different, sometimes without even realizing it.

Someone may only be able to do one thing at a time, and they may have a very hard time solving problems.

https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-executive-dysfunction-in-adhd-5213034

https://www.additudemag.com/7-executive-function-deficits-linked-to-adhd/

https://www.verywellhealth.com/executive-function-and-adhd-5210236

According to modern psychology, it would be almost impossible to manage Criptonautas for someone with ADHD.

They assume that pathologies are chronic, and most would not achieve full self-awareness.

Here I re-set myself

And I followed the coping strategies suggested for people like me.

Take step-by-step approaches to work or break down tasks into smaller tasks

We use open-source and it is part of our foundations as a crypto, free, and digital community.

We will go back to using Mattermost and that will allow us to prioritize to move forward.

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Use tools like time organizers, computers, or watches with alarms

We will set meetings on Fridays at a specific time, and we can chat (text or video) 24/7.

I free myself from being the one who chooses all our schedules, because it goes against me.

Prepare visual schedules or visual task aids, such as flow charts or milestones

I left it for last but it’s on its way. The charts in the community will allow me to be much more assertive.

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Request written directions with oral instructions whenever possible

Yeah! We avoid Whatsapp, Telegram, Zoom, Discord, Meet.

Written is always better for everyone and that’s why this forum exists, instead of a FB group.

Plan and structure transition times and shifts in activities

Done and double checked!

I invested ~3 years in restructuring both the community and my mind and ways of relating…

And by balancing (myself) I feel that I finally resolved (myself).

What I learned from my mistakes

Knowing ourselves allows us to improve, by recognizing ourselves AND stopping judging ourselves.

I could only observe myself by disconnecting. The result is valid for me and then for others.

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Evaluating how to best improve and heal any violent social and/or family issue that burdens my soul, I came across a couple of interesting things.

Vitamin B12 directly influences my deep responses (fight/flight).

That explains why I experienced certain crises after neglecting my diet, hobbies, and focusing too much on others.

When I chose a plant-based diet, my B12 levels decreased… And I understand they were always low due to my ADHD.

Among the B12 options for supplementation, I found what seems to be best absorbed and, curiously, stimulates what would make me less psycho :slight_smile:

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I also choose what contains iron, calcium, sodium, magnesium, water.

I cut out coffee because it would complicate B12 absorption. And I have decaf for an occasional flat white.

I’ll tell you how it goes later; for now, it’s been a week, and I feel more vital!

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I identify with this. I once came across information about being multipotential, but I didn’t know it was related to ADHD. What I do know is that there was always a bit of everything in my head and on my kitchen table when I was little: a biology encyclopedia, political history books, and music magazines. It drove me crazy to think that I could like such different things at the same time and at the same stage of life.
When they asked me what I wanted to study, it was terrible; they’d shoot an arrow, but I’d see a thousand points. I even envied my schoolmates who already knew for sure that they wanted to be X thing, and years later I saw them become that X thing. I thought it was a magical and easy formula that was very difficult for me.
Until I understood that I sought to see all parts of the cube, and to accept that I like living in the tesseract. And to take the red pill. My essence is not dual, or at least duality is what I always try to distance myself from when I detect it.
Haha, I had many changes in look and ways of speaking. I had dark and bright moments. I liked being on stage and also behind it. But nothing was ever total. It never is. It never will be. The only thing closest to that is the understanding that nothing is. It would be like approaching the realization that even the “Sunyata” of “Sunyata” exists: “there is no attainment of wisdom because there is nothing to attain.”

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Hi Orne, this is great. Perfection doesn’t think.

Along the way, I learned that our mind heals from the spirit that no longer analyzes from dual planes.

And that duality forced us to change and adapt to an environment where we were bad or good, depending on what another chose for us (defenseless).

It’s violent. And the way out, once we decide to take it, is as natural as feeling the breeze on your body :slight_smile:

I’ll add to what I’ve been discovering, that B12 has greatly improved my day-to-day life.

I feel more energetic, fewer emotional swings. I’ll take it for another month and then go back for tests.

And in addition to recognizing my hyper-focus, I identified myself as ‘quiet BPD’, which would be a “functional” or “quiet” borderline:

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Over the years, I learned to fill an existential void and/or boredom with books, skills, music.

And changing all the time allows me to trade, to live at my (alternative) pace, without depending on a salary for my money.

Crises exist to remind us who we are and to turn off the ego. To do for oneself AND for others.

I live comfortably because I do it without schedules, with conscious physical and spiritual nourishment…

And I also did therapy with several plants, MDMA, systemic psychology, DBT, EDRM.

https://www.healthline.com/health/quiet-bpd

https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-quiet-borderline-personality-disorder-5115074

https://rd.criptonautas.co/r/BPD/comments/qa9awv/to_those_with_quiet_bpd_what_does_it_feel_like/

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Hello Juan! I believe we come into the world to transform it, with whatever we have.

I forgot to reply to you and just today I published something that thoroughly improved my mind.

Acceptance is the only way to change. Trades, behaviors, relationships, identity. And just like that, no one knows what a disease is.